On my 30th birthday, just 3 months ago I found out my pop pop had cancer. To tell you the truth I didn’t feel an extreme sense of worry. I didn’t realize how soon he could be gone. I had just visited him the summer before and he seemed in good health. In fact at that time I was recovering from my own illness. I was just out of a three daylong hospitalization for my depression. My family thought I could use some time away so we road tripped to Savannah Georgia to visit my pop pop. I thank God for that experience and honestly had I not been trying to recover from severe depression I highly doubt I would have made that trip.
My grandfather died yesterday in his beautiful home in Georgia with his loving wife. His children were there to visit him in his last days. He lived a long beautiful life that many would admire. He retired young, he found love, he was extremely intelligent, funny as hell, and down to earth. He was sometimes hard, but only if he loved you. He was and is loved by so many. He’s visited many countries, traveled around the world…. And now he has moved on. His life was GRAND.
And his death….his death makes me …it makes me feel…..the importance of love, and family even more so.
One day we will all die. It is inevitable. There are so many who die in nursing homes, or at home alone…not my grandfather, he died surrounded by the love of his children and his wife.
What could be more beautiful than moving on to the next segment of your being surrounded by those who love you?
I don’t want to die alone.
And yes, God willing, I have many years left before I reach this point, but the truth is, we never know when our last day will be. We can’t predict when an illness might strike or an accident might happen…. And I don’t want to wait for those things to find out who really loves me. I want to spend my days with those who love me today.
The thought of dying alone scares me, but the thought of living alone scares me even more.
My pop pop was able to live a long beautiful life, and he died knowing he was loved while on this journey.
I just hope that one day I am as lucky as you pop pop.
Your life on this earth will impact your family for generations to come.
We love you dearly.
May your soul forever TURN UP in peace!